I saw that there was a
clear shot from the Namsan tower1, and
seeing the opportunity
before me, atop the
electrical city, sparked another flash and I
could view back to the
photo and contemplate in
the sound second what happened
across that moment.
On the jihachal2 above,
the concrete supports accrue
dormant rust – creeping brown scars –
over the Hangang and
jostling back and forth
rushing by the Hyundais
on the parallel lane. He
sat alone alongside the
company of indifferent
She stared off into her phone
as her friend sat next to her
Down the bright alleys of Jamsil in the live night, another generation jumps thru pubs existing off soju3 again,
jumbled telephone wires intersect into tangled chaos, invisible except for the reflecting shine off the black cords,
warm windows generate the setting of the scene – Koreans for late night maekjus4 and udon ramen, the shade of underground nightclubs dimmed with uv laser lights
sleazy tall guy, scruff on his chin, in the bucket hat with the stained cigarette slipping off his lips says he’s offering maanwon5 whores up the second floor with a single amber light lighting up the concrete steps
the BB gun target game through the window with each ping ping ping shot by each shooter,
a mix of K-pop and sporadic white noise – trite scratches of conversation blah blahing to static
the pungent air of vendors filtering spicy tteokbokki6
who then stared at homogenous women in symmetry – copying all fashionable fads in regionalized Vogue and Ceci
and walk past fourth floor internet cafes, deviants sitting stimulating at burning burning computer screens with faded pixel stains booting up starcraft,
attached to the façades of these concrete five to six story floors were the linear, bulb-backlit signs promoting velvet pool rooms, karaoke bars, attached by two steel beams on the side to extrude out
claustrophobic eleven story clothing malls lined up linearly sporting anomalous fashion of bart simpson patterns and snoopy the beagle cramped with the piling of thrift store vintage t-shirts in burlap sacks and bootleg handbags and pirated DVDs
cancerous, wrinkled men, wearing white tennis hats, sitting on green plastic chairs so abundantly found smoking their dunhills
ditching and stepping on them in torn chestnut loafers, pilling up with the rest of the smudged flyers for pork shops and finished butts wasting away,
all in the confined traversing backstreets and alleyways with all their one stop shops, like puzzling labyrinths and rocky unpaved streets complete with cracking potholes and infinite rumbling of the air conditioner high up, its metallic discharge drip dripping onto the damp road.
5equivalent to ten USD
6fried rice cake
In a modern museum
two photos adjacent another,
frame in clear glass
against a whitewashed wall.
In one, the men and their wives
stand before the sitting
grandparents and children;
all wearing the Hanbok.
The next is the same positioned photo
unchanged with the exception of time7
a boy with light black hair
and a mother.
On the corner of any street you’ll see the printed ads,
of promotional celebrities standing with their counterpart models,
stickered against the glass pane of a 7eleven
with other messages reminding them
that there’s dambae8 and coca-cola
and Lotte9 shit here too
beside the lotto tickets.
And with its blackened floors
dirty from the grime of footsteps;
aisles with shelves reaching
the ceilings collect dust on potato peelers
and various plastic chopsticks sitting
there since the store’s opening.
Her shift was beginning to end
and she was still young
to be wearing the uniform.
The Korean keyboard player,
with the bald head,
plays the chords on the grand piano
and pounds the keys vigorously like
they were bleeding over the
worn white and black keys;
to the drummer who,
naturally multitasks to the snap of the drop cymbal
and hitting triplets on the snare
and the upright bass plucks each baritone
string deep surrounding the brick room underneath the bar
in its sonorous vibration.
In conscious jazz, these are the rules.
400 years when the peasant
walked into Gyeongbokgung10 under the guise
of a rice farmer and Sejong11 was
still huddled in his chamber writing up Hangeul;
he glorified in the basking sun and
of hibiscus courtyards and the magnificent
stature of the palace – temples surrounded
by stone wall and the lavish reflecting pools
that surfaced the prosperous image of royalty.
The farmer’s home the spot of a relatively
successful starbucks12 and
tourists clamoring in the now arid courtyard,
not a tree for shade,
asking the guide when the tour’s about to end.
It was just too hot13!
10main royal palace of Joseon Dynasty
11Joseon Dynasty king
12 coffee chain originating from Seattle
13August 14, 2015. I was in Myong-dong. 105 degrees.
I didn’t need to be here, but she had insistently told me
to come because she wanted to recreate a scene that
she had seen from some tv drama. We were out by the
Namsan, nothing more than a place where dipshit
tourists bought a cable car ticket just for a view. She
bought a padlock on the way and she had Sharpied
our names around a scribbled heart. She checked the
railings for an empty spot; there were none she could
find so slipping it on a decorative tree branch, she threw
the key that locked our heart from the platform and
pressed against me, holding my hand. I didn’t know
why I had felt so indifferent.
Her father addicted to work
and mother bullied for her success,
stringent days in classrooms which you so
I asked you what you enjoy
and you couldn’t answer me.
Only yes or no, either/or and
I prayed for your opinion
say something that you acknowledge.
You are not Antoine Doinel14
but just as unheard.
14q.v. Truffaut The 400 Blows
From the lifeless flat
I could see the pollution sunset15
15 That invariable moment from the sub balcony of the 27th floor in concrete
middle to high class five room apartment housing near Gangnam where,
overlooking the Hangang and northern Seoul, the smog of the city reacts to the
sunlight deriving from the sun 92.96 million miles close, twinkling in the carbonic
air, the blinking red and green signal lights spotted from the barely visible
Namsan mountain in the deep ochre haze with the glaze of sunlight hitting the
other apartment complexes blinding – and it was a spot for every sundown that I
witnessed over the course of the good month.
Where are you now,
as grandfather night eats away?
Padlocked away in this cage of
a two room apartment, bedroom-kitchen
bathroom in Hoegi17 shuttered away at the
loss of your house, crying because
you couldn’t recognize my face
after all these years and what a man
I transformed to and the lonely existence
you face when I inevitably depart.
Is this like the crowded roofs
of boxcars – huddled in UN blankets
with the burnished ground shelled,
the dying grass polished with snow
and infantry lifelessly rolling past in tanks
escaping the 38th parallel over the horizon
of this empty country18.
You told me that the stone bodies,
faceless in the streets
meant nothing near the end and that the crumbles of brick
and concrete powder covered them anyway.
when hal-abeoji19 left in the September
of that year20 – when he taught me hatu a month before –
the only lasting memory I can recall of him –
voice and face forgotten ad infinitum.
How lonesome you must be there alone
sleeping in your stone bed and watching
the news every minute – for what is left to
do? your son and daughters whose
new phones are always off – but could
that also be your fault?
and when we walked one last time you couldnt even go off too far because the walk would only hurt your back to the station and i wouldn’t let that happen to you and i shed a few tears embracing you one last time with no guarantee, being that grandfather night may swoop you away until our next arrival, and i walked down the cobble brick alleys of hoegi and staring back you waved and i waved back multiple times and i turned a corner and you went back in, and i walked back to see if you were still at the top of the street and you weren’t, you probably walked back in your tiny complex and that was the final glimpse.
and I sat in the jihachal thinking only
about the day and I think but still,
I stop somewhere, waiting for you21.
17district in Seoul